4.26.2010
(>.<,)
it seems like there are a lot of things i can be angry about.
life is unfair i guess.
i guess i just cannot come to terms with a lot of things that has happened.
and as each day passes, i find myself more and more angry inside.
i fear that one day, i might just explode.
because there is no way i can release all this pent up anger inside of me.
sadly, i know of none.
spontaneous urge of crying is starting to become a routine.
i fight it back to avoid public embarrassment.
i wish i didn't have to fight so hard.
i wish so much for things to be different.
i have to make it different.
but i know not how...
i know not how...the heart bleeds for itself.
Posted by jing at 4/26/2010 11:16:00 AM
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4.20.2010
zzz
need a hug, some TLC and a long long long sleep.
but I never get what I need. sad.
Posted by jing at 4/20/2010 10:04:00 AM
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4.13.2010
ゴルフ
i miss my golf.
I miss golf.
Posted by jing at 4/13/2010 10:54:00 AM
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4.11.2010
believe or not
perhaps it's not possible to believe anymore.
i want to believe.
or rather, i want to be able to believe.
but perhaps, just perhaps,
part of me doesn't want to believe anymore.
perhaps it's impossible for me to believe again.
believe in goodness.
believe in love.
believe in trust.
believe in bad times not lasting.
believe in you.
i will always remain doubtful.
i don't like it but it's who i am now i'm afraid.
Posted by jing at 4/11/2010 10:21:00 PM
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