3.01.2007
ignorance
ignorance.
ignorance is bliss.
or is it not?
knowledge hurts.
it hurts more than ignorance.
sometimes i think i'm just begging for trouble,
poking my nose around when i'm probably better off not knowing.
yes, knowledge has its price;
it stabs right in heart.
yet, ignorance has its own price too.
coz imagination exists.
ignorance with imagination is like
a million needles striking the heart at the same time, repeatedly.
now, ignorance without imagination...perhaps that's bliss.
knowing that,
i still chose ignorance over knowledge most of the time.
i try to avoid, yet it seems unavoidable.
i want to know, yet i'm so freakin afraid of what might be the truth.
they say "the truth hurts",
and oh yes, it does.
there's no way to be ignorant forever,
and when knowledge finally creeps its way up,
and catches you off guard,
it hurts a zillion times more than you can imagine;
perhaps like tens of katana (sword) stabbed all over your body,
you feel weak instantly and wish you'd die a quick death,
but you just bleed out instead, slowly and painfully.
so maybe, maybe i would be better off
kaypo-ing my way around and knowing it all;
rather than feigning ignorance, trying to avoid
and still get hurt when knowledge hits unexpectedly.
but the truth is,
ignorance allows room for hope to exist.
and as humans, we feed on hope day in day out.
life without hope is, well, empty.
but...
knowledge allows closure.
and as humans, we need closure to move on.
life without closure is, well, vile.
so, which is it? which would you choose?
to know or not to know?
i think i'm very confused.
i do not know what i need.
i do not know what would be best for me.
i do not know what i hope for.
i just know i'm still hurting and will continue to.
is this due to ignorance or knowledge?
Posted by jing at 3/01/2007 10:28:00 PM
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