1.09.2007
.y.l.i.m.a.f.
i remember i used to envy mel's family.
i really like his family.
it always felt nice to hear about them.
they all seemed really nice and close.
i still envy mel's family.
big & well-off family (aunties, uncles, cousins and all)
but cohesive and loving.
even when some things changed,
they seemed to remain the same.
i really like mel's family.
i think i used to secretly wish (i still do...)
that mel's parents could adopt me or something.
then i can be part of the happy family.
i would really like that.
but what i really really really want right now is...
*the big reveal*
*drum roll*
...to just disappear.
not possible though; it's molecularly impossible.
therefore...what i really really really want right now is...
*the big reveal*
*drum roll*
...to maybe go overseas and work and earn loads of money.
so i can try to make every other thing i need and want possible.
sounds materialistic? not if u know me i think.
everything's just so wrong right now,
nothing seems right.
well, we live in a fallen world,
that's why there's hurt.
coz humans hurt one another.
as my fav jap phrase puts it...
仕方がありません (there's no other choice/it can't be helped).
everything's like a big conspiracy man. trust no one.
$ struggle. $ this. $ that.
i hope it ends with our generation.
it's too hurting.
be responsible. be good. be loving. be reliable.
be rich. be smart. be happy. be fun. be filial.
be different. be respected. be natural. be someone else.
all in all...
growing up sucks.
ignorance is bliss.
sometimes just simply "仕方がありません".
Posted by jing at 1/09/2007 12:44:00 AM
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